The piece below was written by eshakti...(2008).
Daily the
majority of us come in contact with situations that have a negative or
adversarial hue. For some these little
incidents cause no hardship just a small blimp in the horizon. However, for others who see life in a
threatening or negative manner, these happenings cause a spiral of feelings
into negativity that can cause feelings of depression, frustration and
immobility.
It is a
matter of the old adage seeing the world as a “glass half full or a glass half
empty.” My view has always been one of
the world as a “half full glass.” All
happenings are seen with a negative focus causing me great depression and bad
feelings about my life and myself. I
know I allowed this to be the case – I never really could get a grasp on the
positive although I tried for many years.
Now with the
Kundalini flowing in me, all the events, happenings and incidents and my
resulting feelings are amplified. So I
am at a crisis point. I have been
wallowing in myself pity since way before K showed its lovely head. Yet, now I need to grasp the negative horns
of my life and turn them around into a more positive aspect before the K draws
me into a state of severe negative feelings of depression and frustration that
I will not be able to change. Some of
you have been in the same situation.
I
will attempt to share how I am working toward a more positive look at my life
and happenings.
One
situation that is paramount in my mind daily is the feeling that after being
out of work for so long that I do not have any skills at all that are worth
anything or any good qualities. That is
what being in depression is all about – losing all sense of the good about
one’s self.
So to help me in this
situation it was suggested that I list my positive potentials and then write
them out many times. Here is the list
that I came up with : I will focus on my
positive potentials: my education, my k- flow, my organizational qualities, my
openness to others, my friendliness, my spirit of adventure, my ability to
attract k-folk, my work ethics, my age, my loyalty.
As I have
been writing the above I realized that I could list many other qualities that I
have. And there is a sense of calmness
that comes over me as I write out my good qualities. Can it be this easy to change an attitude?
