The postings below are ways that the KAS safeties can become part of one's life...I was with the KAS program for over 8 years - now I am not part of that program. KAS and its teacher chrism may be listed in some of these posts. I have tried to delete KAS teachings yet it is not easy and besides - this was my life and is all part of my process.... I am not going to delete the experiences I have had...all written by eshakti...
The
safety of movement with a touch of surrender and trust and gratitude…
Am
staying at the condo where there is the beautiful pool. So I went down this morning. After the procedure yesterday and being on
antibiotics for nearly a week and now an over the counter pain pill I know
my body needs some cleaning out and moving.
Am feeling abit “OFF” like not quite there an underlying unease and a
dull pain in and around the face where the procedure was. All normal am sure yet this morning I did
wake up feeling rested and good.
While
at the pool 2 families with really little kids came down. Since I tend to talk with everyone I found
out the one family lives in the little town where my niece lives. They don’t know them yet have heard the name.
It is indeed a small world.
Am
here for the next few weeks I will be going to the pool daily I hope and just
allowing my body to heal as well as my soul.
I love being here at the condo – am reminded daily that this is now part
of my past. There are reasons for all
agendas I may not like what is given and miss what is given yet in the end it
is all for my good.
It
is a constant to remember to surrender, trust and be grateful for all I
have. Am so blessed to have this
opportunity to stay in a nice place - there are so many leaving their country
with nothing. I can’t do much for them
yet I can send out my joy and happiness that I am blessed.
Gifting
from afar this holiday season. As K folk
seems to me we not only have a responsibility to do service we have a gift that
allows us to serve in a very unique manner.
Send a prayer a thought a joyful smile to all in need all over the
world. Sounds like a plan for me this
holiday.
The
safety of… “Aloneness” or “Loneliness” ???
Not quite…
As
I have been writing these safety posts it comes to mind that there are so many
other “noble behaviors” as chrism calls the safeties at times. Some of the safeties encompass other traits
such as the safety of LOVE there is compassion kindness acceptance and
more. And then there are unique
qualities that one can work on that are not listed in the safeties such as
“Aloneness” and “Loneliness”
Today
I am going to discuss “aloneness” and
“loneliness” neither of which are listed as safeties yet seem to be traits that
most K folk experience.
There
have been times when my entire being wanted “aloneness” Did not want to be with any one did not want
to relate felt distant from everyone and everything. Was perfectly happy to be apart of
alone. During these times it feels like
I am in another world not here in this reality and at this time I seem to
observe what is happening.
And
there are times like now when my entire being feels “loneliness.” This to me is feeling apart from everything
not wanting to feel apart wanting to be with others yet Shakti Kundalini has
another agenda in mind. Family and friends have left or are leaving, people I
felt close to are no longer in my field of knowing, people who have hurt me do
not want to make nice.
Do
you see the difference? Have you been in
either or both of these situations? Though neither of these traits are safeties
seems to me they would be a great addition to the mix.
Surrendering
to either of these is necessary for we often do not get what we want…yet we get what we need at least we want to think
this. Am not in a happy place at this
time – want some interactions with some people who will accept me as I am in
all my Kundalini craziness. YET – seems as if that is not to be. The few that seemed to accept me are not
allowed to interact with me.
So
am moving along struggling with surrender on a moment to moment basis. At times it feels I am in a good place at
others it does not feel that way.
ALONENESS/LONELINESS
all part of the equation …
The
safety of LOVE…and service…
Have
been going to a restaurant here in town for over 10 years. Have met some really nice ladies there who
are great waitresses. The last few
months there is a young girl there who for some reason I find interesting. She is upbeat, friendly loves to talk and
very kind. She makes me smile.
Yesterday
she looked abit pregnant of course I did not say anything one never knows for
sure and then she told me she was getting married and having a baby in
May. It was great seeing her so happy.
Then
I did something I never ever thought I would do- I asked if someone was giving
her a shower. She said her mother in law
was and I said I would like to attend- yeah invite myself always a good thing. Never do I do things like this. Just felt compelled to be good to her to help
her in some way. She and her fella both work yet not at fantastic jobs. I imagine the $ is tight.
Feels
as if Shakti is guiding me here – as she did 8 years ago when the compulsion to
download things and move out of the blue.
Have not really processed all the moving I did will probably never
really know what it was all about and that is fine.
Have
been thinking of what to give this girl something made by me for sure – a baby
blanket or a basket or perhaps a cradle if it is a girl. Seems of late whenever I encounter someone
there is some lesson to learn some service to give some knowing to grasp.
This
to me is living the safeties – not going out and doing so much as allowing
whatever comes to come and then react in a Kundalini manner.
I
made a towel for this girl and will be taking it to her this week. This before I heard of her news. Others have talked of giving away their art
and I find that it feels good to give things away that I make. There are no expectations – the gift is given
– then off I go.
Something
so simple as a small gift can make a huge difference to others…
Love
and service a true Kundalini way of living.
The
safety of trust…
The night chrism gave me this assignment to write daily
on a safety I got a headache which I seldom ever get and I felt nauseous. How am I gonna write each day about how I am
following the safeties? Did not sleep
that night and sometime during the night there was a shift. Decided that I was not gonna worry about this
about what to write was going to let Shakti guide me. That next morning when I sat to write the
first post the wording just came. As it
has each day since. Situations present
themselves that allow me to write on. As
I have posted before the safeties become a way of life one becomes the safeties
and it is not a matter of thinking about them.
It is a matter of living them walking surrounded by the behaviors.
Some sit and “do” the safeties of forgiveness,
recapitulation, gratitude, etc. If that
works or if that is a way to begin to think of them and understand how they are
to become part of ones life that is a good way.
However, seems to me it is all about “living the process” “living the safeties.”
Just wanted to share how trusting in ones process and the
agenda the Shakti has for each of us is a powerful testament to surrendering
and to trust.
Thank you Shakti for the guidance…
The safety of love…(i.e.
compassion)
Today went to
deliver a small gift to the girl at the restaurant that I wrote of the other
day the one who is getting married. Her
eyes were full of tears and she seemed really upset. She did not want to tell me what was wrong so
I ordered and chatted just abit. I
wondered if she had had an issue with work. She did like the gift I gave.
This restaurant is
owned by a greek couple I have been going there for over 10 years and got to
know the lady and really like her. Never
really talked with the fella. The other
day while there the fella was yelling at his workers. That upset me don’t like to see or hear
anyone getting yelled at and I felt it was just inappropriate for him to do it
with customers there.
So today the lady
owner was there and I called her over and told her how her hubby had yelled at
his employees with me there. She of
course apologized. Havve tried to take a
more active role when I see things that just do not seem like good customer
service.
The girl came back
later and said she was ok and was excited about the shower that will be given
for her. She then sat down and told me
that yes indeed she had been talked down to by her employer am not sure if it
was the man or the lady. I did not tell
her I had talked to the lady. She was
saying she does not like being treated like a “nothing” like she knows
nothing. I tried to offer some advice
about how we have to try to get along even when we feel the other is a
jerk. Told her I can so relate have not
totally learned that skill as yet.
I felt badly for
her. Have been in that position often
and one feels so hopeless so unworthy.
Just like with the Kundalini there are times when we may feel totally
“unworthy.” We may not understand the
why or wherefore of this gift and what is expected of us. And feel we just can’t
do what is expected.
For some reason my
path has crossed with this girl. Am
going to really make an effort to follow my guidance in regards to her. It is good for me to be in a position of
being able to offer compassion to another.
It brings me out of myself and shows me that others can feel hurt and
unsure and in pain. I do not have a
monopoly on all things hurtful.
Compassion a form of
love – as we give compassion we grow in love.
Service to others within all the safeties comes back to us in abundance.
The
safety of forgiveness…
Was
going thru my usual ritual while trying to sleep of thinking of this and that –
all of a sudden the phrase :Needy R us”
came to mind. I smiled knowing
that yes this is true. I like so many
who are given the gift of grace that is Kundalini, seem to always need
something: an explanation, an understanding, a healing , a feeling of love– we
demand this and that and expect answers.
Well
that is not how it works all the time.
We sometimes need to just let it all go – not expect not ask not
understand and we need to trust and surrender.
At the same time I like others need to forgive myself for the neediness
I exude.
Ask
and you shall receive becomes ask and you will receive when you are ready to
receive.
I
forgive myself for being needy …
The safety of love… as
seen In xmas movies…
Have always loved xmas movies and
am sooooo grateful that I am staying at my old condo and can watch them. Have been noticing Xmas
movies often expouse the safeties in some way.
Not in terms of how we with Kundalini see them yet the sentiment is the
same.
Forgiveness is often
struggled with in terms of family and friends – sound familiar? Then there is the being in the moment learning
that your decisions of the moment determine the next move – the next step on
the path. Then of course there are the
challenges of living a good life- forgiving one’s self - making the best decision for the time – being
honest with those around one – trusting that the universe has a plan for you,
etc. There is a never ending cornucopia
of the safeties found in these movies.
As a child I had a
great imagination – I lived in two worlds the one of reality and the one of my
imagination. There were many times the
two were simultaneously happening.
Someone the other day mentioned how they used to dream of being with
Shiva – well as a kid being that I was raised Catholic my boyfriend in my
imagination was the perfect fella – the only one who could give me what I
needed and desired – my boyfriend was the #one boy – Jesus. OMG there was never anything of a s&xual
nature for I did not know things at that time yet he was there for me made me
feel smart important and loved.
Looking back it is a
funny memory yet here I am today gifted with the greatest gift in the world and
being loved by the Divine both feminine and masculine. Looking back had I talked with someone who
knew about the K path they may have shown some light on my other life. I never told anyone. It was private – and I knew that they would
not understand just like people do not understand the K.
I needed to feel
love so I used my gift of imagination to feel that love. The
movies I watch feed my imagination – these are stories of possibilities. And as chrism continually says all life has
Kundalini significance once one is activated.
The movies show me ways to live the safeties and is that not what it is
all about. Living the “Noble behaviors”
as a gifted graced person – a Kundalini person.
Happy Holidays to
all no matter what your culture or life style.
Movies are one way I see how the safeties can become a living breathing
entity in my life. And beginning
tomorrow Harry Potter – all 8 movies will begin – an other way to see how the
safeties are part of living. IMO
The
safety of tolerance…
Today
I will be with some friends for dinner.
Being with non K folks is not always easy. Am thinking of all of us who are with family
and friends today while now walking in a new world. How hard it is to “fit in” and to be cordial
and converse. Am preparing myself by
remembering that K is a divine gift and that as I am within the process it is
my responsibility to be loving and gracious.
Maybe
K will pleasantly surprise me today with allowing me to not think of too many issues
that are currently on my plate. If not I
will make it thru as tolerating and cordial as I can be.
Have
a joyous holiday to all those who celebrate this time of year. Sending you good vibes that you will walk the
day with tolerance and love.
The safety
of Inner Joy…
The
dinner last night Christmas Day with friends was so so wonderful. Just seemed to flow though it and it felt so
good. I laughed which is something I
seldom do and do miss it.
We
played a game called Christmas trivia.
Usually I do not do well at these games yet in this one the answers
seemed to just come and while that was happening I felt Shakti with me. It was interesting to be observing myself
being given the answers and there was no thinking for most of them – the answer
just popped into my head.
I
truly miss being with others. This short
time of being with others showed me that indeed I can do OK and that there is a
need to at times be around people. I do
enjoy being alone just not all the time and how can one test the waters so to
speak how can one see how the safeties are working in ones life if there are
not others to bounce things off?
The
holiday season always makes me feel maudlin – it is a time to reevaluate my
life and see where I have come in the last year. Does not look too bad from where I sit-
others may disagree yet my path is between me and my Kundalini – how we move
along is all about us.
The
safety of tolerance and forgiveness…
Here at the condo
is a lady who lives year round. I
usually always call her to go out to lunch when I an here. I told her I would be here over the xmas
holidays. I have tried to see her while
here and she is never in. She has a lady
staying with her. I did drop off a small
gift for both of them last night.
Have decided that
I will not contact her again. We really
look at things differently and it is better not to have to put on the persona
of normalcy IMO. This is what is
happening with all those I know or have known except a few.
Apparently I am
to be alone for now. At least I had
dinner with some folks and will be going out NEW Years eve with them. Not sure I can stay awake yet will try.
Have to really
look at my life as the new year approaches.
So much to take in and embrace, surrender and let go – the never ending
saga of being K active.
The
safety of Trust…
This
is my opinion …have felt a need to share …
The
KA! Group draws people from all over the world.
As members we are not privy to who these folks are or what their motives
are. The admins do a good job of
scouting out the negative language – posts of other modalities and teachers –
links that have nothing to do with K- links for adverts, etc.
However
they can do nothing about anyone who contacts members privately. Just want to
post a heads up to all KAS members. Be
very discerning be very careful (especially you young nice looking ladies)
there are predators out there and they will do what they do.
Like
me many of you were raised to be polite and not shun anyone for who they are
where they live how they look, yet in this age of everything is public- one
needs to be very careful.
If someone
from KAS asks me a direct ? I may answer it if I know the answer or if they do
not feel right I do not answer or I send them back to the group or I send them
on to my favorite admn. I will not start up any conversations with people
especially the men unless I know they are a strong member and I have even asked
about certain people.
I
am here to tell you – trust your K. If
someone feels wrong then go with it- do not let old trainings of “be nice” put
you in a not so nice situation. It is ok
to tell someone to leave you alone – it is ok not to answer them - you can
block them – you can certainly report any negative or aggressive behavior to an
admin or to chrism.
Situations
are not discussed openly and so in my mind that leaves some of us open to not
so good situations. As a Kundalini
man/lady you have a responsibility to keep your vessel and your environment
clean and open to the gifts. If others
are doing a number on you then you have a responsibility to take charge and
trust what you feel.
Yes
I know sometimes these situations are lessons and learnings however take care
of yourself be strong and discerning.
Some folks have been hurt by falling back on “be nice.” chrism always
says that we need to be discerning in all areas of Kundalini – seems like this
falls under that teaching.
The safeties …
Resurrected this
after reading that someone is struggling with whether to be silent or write…abit
wordy read if so inclined…
You
do have something to say…
I have been wanting to address
this issue for a long time. In my correspondence with various members I find
that so many folks - it seems are concerned that what they have to say is
meaningless or they are not saying it well. And there is a concern that what
is said will be harmful to the group or is not acceptable.
The KAS site houses an open forum where members can share and be honest and
free to express their concerns events
and questions. I have said this before and will again - the members here are
phenomenal in their presentations of thoughts, words and writings of stories.
Each of us has an unique style - each says things in a personal and in a
cultural manner. Whether we are discussing diet, the safeties, ideas,
thoughts, concerns or anything if it is important to you - it is ok to post.
The only guidelines are that one write with courtesy, showing respect to all
others and within the safeties - being accepting of all opinions and views
presented with tolerance forgiveness and gratitude.
How you present is not important - it is the fact you are saying it and what
you say from your heart that is.
It is difficult to discuss things in person often-- here on the web it is
even more difficult - there are no facial cues no body language so we rely on
our interpretation of words which come from our cultural and educational
perspectives.
I too at times am concerned about how I come across - here we are not only speaking
with words but with our unique energy signatures. I know mine is blunt and
can feel rough - I do try to temper this by using the safeties as my guide.
So here is the bottom line- chrism gives this group his loving presence and
offers us a place to share our Kundalini experiences without worrying too
much about how others will react. Yes there are times when our feelings get
hurt or we get bent out of shape by what someone is saying especially when
the words go against our personal beliefs that we so adamantly hang on to.
Some say that how we react is the seeing of ourselves in the other. So if one
sees no tolerance in others then that is coming from within ourselves. If one
sees pride in others that is a reflection of ourselves. I know this for I am
very good at projecting my feelings and inadequacies onto others.
Would not it be wonderful if we did not have to use words - if we could look
into each other’s eyes and see the truth of self - the divine within – there
would be no need for words- but alas we are many hundreds or thousands of
miles separated. The only mode of communication is words so there is an added
need to use our integrity, use the safeties of tolerance, forgiveness,
gratitude, love, trust, honor and respect when posting. As long as we keep
these in mind what we say will be important and helpful to others.
I find that Shakti guides me in my writings- the words flow easily and
truthfully as long as I keep love and service to others in mind.
And we also have the support of the group who offer love and service when
needed. I feel so blessed to be part of this loving community.
Do you have anything to say?? YES YES YES you do have much to say - each of
us has lived a life time of stories - we have learned and been tested in oh
so many ways we can help each other by sharing these events with honesty and
love.
I honor all of you who are willing to share yourself and your inner anguish,
your lessons, your tests, your ?'s, your love, tolerance, forgiveness,
honesty, trust, surrenderings, joy, etc.
It does not matter to me how you write or how it is said - I read between the
lines and allow for the distance caused by the internet. You all have so much
to offer - so much to share and so much to give to each of us.
Please feel good about you - for there is only one you and you are graced
with Kundalini Shakti - she chose you - she is within you and what you have
to say is flowing from her thru you.
Be brave my little caterpillar - you wiggle with grace.
Love to all my KAS family ; May your light shine through your words with love…
The safety of surrender…
The area where the root canal on
my tooth was worked on has been feeling irritated and the gums are
swollen. This is how it began to feel
before I had the procedure so am abit concerned. Am going to have it checked by the
surgeon. Am hoping this visit is
included in the fee for the procedure.
All my life I have prayed that I can keep my teeth unlike my parents who lost
all their teeth. I take care of them
although lately with $ issues it is not as good as it needs to be. With the issues chrism had I knew there was
a chance I too would have teeth problems.
As he says K can heal or K can mitigate loss. Yeah I get that.
Whatever happens I am open to
being OK with teeth or without. Know
that I have done my best to care for them so will feel good either way.
Everything is given as tests or
lessons and with the teeth for me there are many lessons I can walk away from
or with.
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The safety of service…
I went to a
meeting to see the ins/outs of cremation yesterday. Have been interested in setting up a plan for
when I pass so no one has to be responsible for any issues. Attended with a
friend – she was ready to buy I have to save for the deposit and then make
monthly payments. Am going to make this
part of my new year $ plans.
We had the best
time. Two old broads talking about dying
and how we do not want anyone to have to set things up or pay for
anything. How many people can sit and
joke and laugh about dying? Neither of
us are too concerned about the end of life.
Other than we want things in order.
We both have some
ideas of what we think of the whole death industry. I had called a funeral parlour a few years
ago about cremation and was told that when cremated you still have to buy a
plot buy a casket lead lined and be buried.
That is not true of course I did not know this at the time.
The ashes can be
scattered according to what you want. This company has a boat that goes out
once/month and scatters the ashes in the ocean and then a lovely glass plaque
is presented to the family as to the time/place of the sea burial. I had a good laugh at that – who would want that
setting on the desk? And they send
everyone a memento box where you can put things you want the family to have –
nix that – yes for some it is all nice and rosy and people want to hang on to
something. I have never been a
sentimentalist over things. And as a K
lady attachment to things is just not the way to go. And yet I realize some family or friends may
need something to remember some by.
Since I have no mate no kids no one other than siblings it just makes
sense to have the least amount of hoopla as possible.
As a society I
wish we would discuss death and how it really is all a part of living.
Anyhow – I see
setting up this plan as a service to those who may end up having to be there at
my passing or actually after the passing.
One thing that
this company offers as a service is if you sign up and have kids the kids if
they pass can be cremated free up to the age of 21. Now this guy said this has not been utilized
much at all however what a nice service.
Sometimes it is really hard for some when a family member passes but
when it is a child it is really hard so it is nice to not have to set things
up.
Thinking about
dying brings up a whole lot of looking at ones life.
I don’t dwell on
it just all part of the process of living and just thought of the fact as K
lady my ashes will be K radiated so wherever they land they will be good for
the place yes??? And I am not morbid
about it all…
It was really
nice to sit and laugh and joke about our passing. And oh yes I really need to clean house get
rid of things so no one has to go thru all my clutter. That is my new years plan – clean out and
declutter.
Service
comes in many hues – planning ones funeral is a great service to others.
“We walk with
the light of our halos to shine our way leaving luminous sign posts by virtue
of our integrity and actions of love that others may follow, as we follow the
signs left by those who have gone ahead of us. Luminous footprints.” –chrism
Die happily
and look forward to taking up a new and better form. Like the sun, only when you set in
the west can you rise in the east. ~
Jelaluddin Rumi ~
The
safety of surrender,,,
Am
getting rather gabby – sorry just easier to tell stories with lots of words and
images…
Went
to a New Years eve dinner. Was so
looking forward to it and it was a very different experience. I was thinking nice dinner where we could
talk or whatever. The venue was outside
– apparently they do big events weddings and such all outside sometimes using tents but
tonight everything was out in the open.
As
we arrived it started to rain – yes a hard rain so we went to a small bldg
where they were having snacks. We then
proceeded to the tables. Everything was
soaked- the tables the chairs. We found
a table that was kind of under a tree yet we held umbrellas to keep out the
rain. I had a shawl and it got soaked
which meant later as it cooled down I got cold.
I
was very proud of myself thoughts kept going thru my head how really not fun
this was however my friend had paid for the whole table – I felt badly for her
because here she was giving a lovely gift and it was not turning out as well as
she had thought. I however kept my
thoughts to myself which I normally do not do.
We
sat for quite a time waiting – the rain eventually stopped and then the servers
came around and stripped the lovely table cloths put on dry ones and new
napkins. We all helped. As I was thinking this is really not a way to
run an event. I have set up many big events
and always there needs to be a back up for outside events. After asking I found out they just go with
whatever when the weather acts up. That
is fine and well yet when people are paying for things – well the drinks were
all included and people were getting into the alcohol thing- not me..
This
was so outside my comfort zone – wet bottom wet clothes smoke you can not
believe -there were a number of e-cig smokers filling the area with volumes of
smoke. And then there was the music – am
always very sensitive to sounds and this so called music was so loud my teeth
jittered. It made it next to impossible
to talk to anyone - I did find a napkin and put some in my ears that helped a
lot. It reminded me of the rave I took
chrism to. Alex Grey was in San Francisco
and I thought it would be nice to see him do his art. WRONG- I had never been to a rave and never
want to again. The venue was closed loud
music that they kept turning up and my body was assaulted to the point of
pain. Grey came and signed his work –
chrism was in line to meet him and Alex left before chrism got to the
table. Then we went to the area where
Grey was to paint he did not come and we ended up leaving – still am trying to
figure out what that was all about.
We
finally got the food which was really good.
I am very grateful that my friend invited me for it means a lot however
my body is still in recovery from the atmosphere I was in for 5 hours.
Was
thinking about those going to Peru. That
is not a trip I would want to take- heat bugs snakes possibly no showers bus
rides with the gasoline smell – yuck- I would be miserable.
Have
been told that I am too into wanting comfort – well yes I am see no need to
assail my body with noise smoke being wet or eaten alive. Give up comfort (yes I have some) yet there
is a limit to what I will do for now.
Have read where one of the big name teachers went into Samadhi and he
sat in a room as rats chewed on him until a lady came who eventually married
him – she saved him. Well not ready for
that…
I
figure my New Year is gonna be really good as I ended 2015 with such a
challenging situation. Have a lot of
ideas of things I want to do this year.
Will see how I fair.
Do
have a Lovely first day of 2016-I will be 68 this month- never ever thought I would
make it this far. And it is not so bad –
still moving about still have my mind in tact ( kind of ) and still have a
lovely imagination that is very helpful with the K and oh yes I am K active –
what better way to live in a new year.
So
surrender trust tolerate and be grateful… A few of the basics of
Kundalini. Thank you chrism for being
the guide for so many including me. And thank you Shakti for giving your son
the tools needed to guide us.
Happy
Kundalini New Year…
The
safety of patience…
There
is a fella who lives on my floor. We say
hello in passing. He seems like a nice
man. Was funny one day I was at the
farmers market and he was there with his grandson – I said hello and the
grandson said its his birthday today. OK
so Happy Birthday!!! Why he wanted to
tell me have no idea.
So
the other day I rode the elevator with this man and he insisted he had
something to show me. We went to his apt
and he began to show me the things his daughter has made for him – a tree out
of beads that lights up , a towel crocheted like I do, some cards she sent, a
painting etc. He said she is the only
kid that keeps in touch and he was very proud of her.
I
found this action of wanting to show me his treasures rather touching. There are things I would like to share with
someone and there is no one. It reminded me that there are so many seniors who
do not have anyone – we live alone we spend lots of alone time and do not have
community since so many of us moved here from some other place. Some find solace in being part of card
players, bingo, dinners… most of the men do not participate. Cant blame them who wants to be with a bunch
of old biddies. The men keep to
themselves and the ladies (not all) seem to gravitate to others of course they
love to discuss everything and anything that comes up- often getting upset over
what is said.
Lesson
for me – be patient and be more friendly – a little hello does not cost me
anything and can mean a lot to someone who has no one. And keep to myself so I don’t get caught up
in all the hoopla that seems to go on around here.
Living
with seniors requires one whole lot of patience…
Safety
of patience….
Tested
again today. Went to do laundry and a
lady came in - people tend to want to
visit in the laundry when all I really want to do is read. So she kept talking to me – found out lots about her. Seniors like to talk about themselves. She is 78 still works retired from Verizon
and worked in the DMV – is now lining up appts for some agency. 78 and still working – she says they like her
so much she makes her own schedule. Found out what floor she is on that she is
battling a smoker on her floor – this is a smoke free bldg yet people still
sneak their smoking – how the new manager is better he is keepin on top of things
that there is a 3 strike your out here on infractions- wow – what a storehouse
of info.
Was
very happy to finish and can now have some quiet to read. Being patient wears on me – I enjoy
discussions not monologues all the time.
For
some reason I am here am hoping for a job soon if allowed. As chrism stated on the radio show –
Kundalini will decide if one works or not.
I have worked only 1 ½ years in the past 8. Am ready to get back and see if I can handle
being with others. And of course am
ready to bring in some $ that will be a treat.
Am
looking forward to seeing the first episode of Downton Abbey tonight for the
final season. Have been looking forward
to it.
Have
a great day … remember your patience
The
safety of trust…
Feel
very off today – like walking in another world – when this happens as it does
at times just going with it and accepting that it is part of the process is
best for me. I trust that the Kundalini
will take care of me and all will be well.
Have
been making phone calls all morning taking care of the daily stuff we all go
thru. Things seem to always have a
catch. The day will go as it will.
Trust
trust trust… mantra for the day
